I haven’t written in this post for some time. Part of the reason is from my busy schedule; the other was from corporate bullying, which isn’t worth revisiting. All I can say is that chavs, douchebags, and assholes exist in all walks of life whether they are idiots from “Jersey Shore” or work in suits somewhere in Midtown Manhattan. The difference is that the clowns in “Jersey Shore” don’t realise they are aired to the world for their personal amusement while the corporate drones are babied by the United States government.
Was I really that bitter? After looking at the post I’ve made since 2006, I can say that I was. I really was angry at how the cheaters in the Rutgers Business School undergraduate programme were able to secure lucrative jobs in the big 5 investment banks; only to play their part in engineering this Global Recession. I was angry how I was lied to for almost 4 months by a friend (Sean Soh) I trusted so he can divert attention from his secret relationship with a girl who I had liked at that time at my expense. I really was frustrated at being setup for failure and seeing how people can so easily game the system for their own benefit. It really seemed at that time that society was giving obscene rewards for all sorts of bad behaviour. I just wanted to take it out of someone who deserved it. There was a time where I wished there was a God so he could destroy the world and start anew. I really wanted to see the world burn at that time.
It really seemed like these people can get away with it. Most of the kids of cheated went on to get a 6-figure salary, huge bonuses, and 5-week vacations around the world. The kid who gave me a batch of undeserved problems got his girl, moved to the West Coast and then unfriended me when I started suspecting what he had done because he thought he got away with it. One of the rules of blogging is to only name check if the post is presenting someone in a positive light or to slam them; some people deserved to be slammed.
Eventually I moved on from this and started setting into my job, where I used my free time to change and reinvent myself. I really enjoyed working with the people in my office and the overall work environment. It seems like ages ago when it was so simple to find meaningful work and have a sense of stability to pursue personal and professional growth. It sounds nostalgic because some of these things no longer appear to exist in this day and age but I digress.
I am uncertain if there is anything that will keep me content or happy. It seems like God has a sick sense of humour in this life because He has a tendency to take away anything that made me happy or content at the most random moments. This is one of the reason I chose not to believe or have any faith in a God because it is quite silly to think there is a sadistic higher being that is messing with our lives for His own personal amusement. Then again, people chose to believe in a sadistic deity because it is a means for them to channel their hopes, dreams and frustrations into something. In my case, I am channeling all of my past and present anger and frustration into it.
Seems like things are better than compared to the past. I am still employed, I am with good company, and the people I knew who caused me problems have either slipped into obscurity or getting what they deserved. Sometimes it just seems so hopeless, especially when the promises of hope and change that Obama oversold failed to materialise. Yes, America has an African-American President but he is weak, indecisive, and easily influenced by his lesser bureaucrats. I really wished he is actually did his job to end America’s War of Terror, go after bullshit behaviour in corporate America and most of all sort out this healthcare fiasco. If he doesn’t, he’ll only prove that no one can deliver real change to the broken Federal government and he will become the next David Dinkins.
That’s enough for now. I’ll go back to the standard hipster and Wall St. bashing in the future.
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